just arrived home
will post details later. now must shower and eat
part of me wants to dive in head-first
part of me wants to hide under the covers for the next three to five years
how is it possible to be this conflicted
** if anyone has any wisdom, now would definitely be the time to share it
Jesus, he says goodnight like a fucking prince.
I need someone to keep me from getting ahead of myself.
Oh dear God.
I have some sort of early afternoon date with New Guy tomorrow.
I’m excited but nervous. My stomach is doing backflips. Is 18 too old for your first date. I should go to bed but my head won’t stop going in circles. Excited but nervous. Excited but nervous.
I have a date tomorrow. I have…a date tomorrow…?
New Guy wants to hang out tonight bc he’s heading into my town to hang with other friends and just ugh nerves and I thought I’d have another whole day to get ready to see him
do I go or not
that is the question